Questions. Friendship.

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I'm really questioning the faith people have in friendships with me, and I'm starting to question my own faith. Information is coming to light left and right, mostly involving Brianna. She seems ever persistent that she did the right thing in lying to me, and continues to "not remember" what happened. Odd, since I seem to be able to recall almost every txt from the end of our friendship word for word. Then again, my mother has an amazing memory, so perhaps I've just been blessed with a genetically awesome memory. I don't want to get into details now, as I've learned that you never want to tell anyone what you know unless they're a completely 3rd party that has nothing to do with the situation, otherwise people share information behind your back. So as of now, I'm not saying what I know, as this is a public location, and anyone can read it, and knowing who a good deal of my readers are (whether you've told me or not, thanks Google). Anyways, with the upper hand seemingly mine, I must go.

UPDATE: Now thinking about the situation more and speaking to a couple of third parties about it, as well as some people directly involved, I've realized that I am being replaced. Thinking about what I brought into that group, was alot less than I thought it was. Now I feel that all I brought was entertainment. A vehicle, and another girl (to try and avoid the sausage fest feeling). This girl, Brianna, is not only a much bigger part of this group as I originally expected, but is also being updated on my day to day activities. These activities are made to look like I'm a much worse person than I am, and for that, I am not happy with those other people involved, those who are, as I found, very two-faced and no longer reliable in my book. Since my car broke down (not my fault, as much as people would like to believe), and since I decided to no longer be friends with someone who treats me like she did, always arguing with me for no reason, lying to me, going behind my back, lying to my friends, and so on. That said, someone new has been brought in. Someone who has a car they can have fun in, and.. modify with extreme distaste, and not only that, but he can bring Brianna along.

So right now, I have many of the answers I was seeking, and no, I do not wish to hear anyone's side of the story, because the last few months of my life have been filled with people who I thought were my friends being very deceitful towards me, and also blaming me for being filled with exactly that. Again, no more names need to be shared, but you know who you are, and I know you're reading this. So to you, and your group, thanks to your deceit and seeming inability to remain friends with me because I'm me, and not because I had a fun car. I'm moving on. Making new friends, whether you like it or not.

So, here's to a new life, unless someone wants to come out, here, publicly, leave a comment and go for it, but no promises that I'll believe you, because again, I know alot more than you want me to know, so only the truth is helpful.

Daily Updates for 6/19/09 and 6/20/09

Sorry about not updating a day, I had no access to my computer.

So First off, lots of weird shit happened, and alot of it I'm not going to go into, but feel free to ask me in person, and I'll try my best to fill you in.

So on Friday, I didn't get much sleep before my 8:30 shift, especially since I worked a close wash shift the night before. So after work, I hung out with Adam, we drove around, did our thang around town and what not, and had a little get-together at his house. WAY more people than expected showed up, so we had quite the crowd control going on. We ended up doing our best to rid ourselves of the people we didn't want spending the night. So with them gone (I was allowed to use Adam's Volvo to drive them all home) we played some pong and headed to bed. The night was alot more... action-filled than I'm making it seem.

Today (Saturday), I got up fairly early, did cleanup with Adam around the house, and got to work at 6. Worked till closing, being ignored by pretty much everyone I was trying to get ahold of. I decided to text that girl we've been talking about, and she didn't respond.. until about 5 hours later. Seems something that happened (which I am well aware of) affected her alot more than expected, and that in turn makes her not want to be around anything that is "male". Now, honestly, I thought her and I had shared something on a certain night that was not-so-detailed in the 2400 word "Update Post". To put it bluntly, I thought I was more to her than just "a guy" or some "male", apparently not, and simply because I have a dick, I'm cursed to be hated by her. It's fucked up, yeah, but if you knew why she's doing this, you would (or at least should) understand. And with that said, I do understand. I've read up on the psychological effects of her incident, and I should have seen this coming, and I just didn't. I just feel like my best friend is gone forever.

Anyways, I managed to make it home after being ignored all night, so I'll be spending my Father's Day sleeping, avoiding people, and going into a nice social dark mode for a day. I've got too much shit on my plate, and I need a break from the drama, no matter how bored I get. Part of this comes because I feel like I HELLA missed out at the Friday Party, even though I was right there. Kind of made me feel really inadequate and useless as a social person.

Expect a small update for 6/21/09