FINALLY!!
Ready for an update for like... the entire month of July 2009??? AWESOME!
K! So, as you know, rumors about Cody J and Maia spread about.. as I expected, it all came back to me, Cody J wanted to like kill me, I stopped talking to Maia, Justin got really upset with me, and nothing was even my fault. They still think I did it, but fuck them, all I did was tell Adam to beware of Maia. That turned into me making up a huge rumor about them and blah blah blah, BULLSHIT.
K! Then.. not much happened, the 4th, parents were gone, Adam came over, few fireworks, drove around, awesome. Hit up Jack in the Box too, put my suit on (PICTURES ON MYSPACE AND FACEBOOK), got a clear acoustic tube earpiece, been sportin' that a bit too.
Then not much happened, UNTILLL....
So we all know about this girl I like. Most of you know who she is, but I'm still not saying her name. Point being, things suddenly became amazing. We spent all the time together, I stayed at her house (a first for me) and she even stayed at my house... two nights... in a row! Great time. The next day (Sunday), I did something that took me 19 years to work up enough courage to do. I kissed her. That's right, I initiated something with a girl. Very proud of that, it was very special for me. That said, it apparently wasn't very special for her... We ended up (Hey I just realized, it was exactly 1 week and 15 minutes ago that I kissed her, as I am writing these words. Awesome.) getting in a bit of a fight, which worked out as usual... but basically here's the story...
She never liked me. She's still in love with Cody J (yes, the same one). She lied to me about being over him to try and convince me of such, in hopes of convincing herself of such as well. FML. Took me a day or two to get over that, but since I'm the most forgiving person she'll ever meet.. I of course came right back to her. Some other stuff happened that I cannot speak of, for it isn't stuff anyone needs to know (this is more bad stuff, if it was something good, I'm sure I'd be gloating one way or another).
While all this crap is happening, my bro, Adam, is falling for Brianna. Yes the same Brianna that took my life and stomped on it. It is now at the point where the two are engaging in activities that nobody will speak of. Considering the prior relationship between her and I, Adam is totally breaking bro code, and losing trust daily. God knows what they're doing, but I don't approve of it.
Now here we have this girl I like. Who seems to also be falling for another boy (whom she dated 3 years ago). Think of me. I'm good at two things. Cars, and Computers. He's better at both of them than me... and he's better looking (what Brianna see's in Adam I have no clue, but since she has been the number one source of drama and lying in my life this year, FUCK her shit, I don't trust her anyways). So it's understandable why she might like him (Carl... ohhh FUCK Carl)... except that he lives in England and is only here for the summer.
See, I'd do anything for this girl. Anything to make her happy. I would go to the ends of the earth for her... but I feel like she doesn't see that. It's probably because so many guys have hurt her in the past, but I feel like I shouldn't have to suffer because of her mistakes in choosing boyfriends. I was told recently, that 98% of guys are douche bags, and they ruin it for the other 2% of us who aren't. I feel like I'm that 2%. I don't want sex, since I've never had, it's not a drive I have. If I get it, maybe that will change, but probably not. I aim to please. I'm a great listener, and give great advice, and yet, I'm always the one that gets trampled on when someones on the way to fame. FML.
I guess long story short.. Adam is losing my trust because he's getting on a girl who rejected me and ruined my life by making many people hate me. Brianna is.. a bitch. She needs to learn how to keep her mouth shut (OH BTW, Brianna and this girl are like BFF's now, so I can't say anything to either one of them without the other one knowing within 3 minutes, EFF THAT SHIT). And this girl is really giving me a harsh time, making me feel loved one day, and the next telling me she had to force herself to like me. I'm not sure if she's still flirting with me or not. I don't know what to do next. I love her, more than anything, and I had a nice talk with her tonight, proving to her that I'll always be there for her, and I made some damn good points! I don't know.. that's all my life is.. just.. fucked up drama all the time. I'm quite close to changing my phone number and moving away.. so nobody finds me. But at the same time, I'm so attached to this damn island that I can't manage to get away. *sigh* If only I could show Adam how un-bro-like he's being. If only I could show Brianna how much shit she causes. If only I could show this other girl how much I love and care about her, and have her return the feelings....
K! So, as you know, rumors about Cody J and Maia spread about.. as I expected, it all came back to me, Cody J wanted to like kill me, I stopped talking to Maia, Justin got really upset with me, and nothing was even my fault. They still think I did it, but fuck them, all I did was tell Adam to beware of Maia. That turned into me making up a huge rumor about them and blah blah blah, BULLSHIT.
K! Then.. not much happened, the 4th, parents were gone, Adam came over, few fireworks, drove around, awesome. Hit up Jack in the Box too, put my suit on (PICTURES ON MYSPACE AND FACEBOOK), got a clear acoustic tube earpiece, been sportin' that a bit too.
Then not much happened, UNTILLL....
So we all know about this girl I like. Most of you know who she is, but I'm still not saying her name. Point being, things suddenly became amazing. We spent all the time together, I stayed at her house (a first for me) and she even stayed at my house... two nights... in a row! Great time. The next day (Sunday), I did something that took me 19 years to work up enough courage to do. I kissed her. That's right, I initiated something with a girl. Very proud of that, it was very special for me. That said, it apparently wasn't very special for her... We ended up (Hey I just realized, it was exactly 1 week and 15 minutes ago that I kissed her, as I am writing these words. Awesome.) getting in a bit of a fight, which worked out as usual... but basically here's the story...
She never liked me. She's still in love with Cody J (yes, the same one). She lied to me about being over him to try and convince me of such, in hopes of convincing herself of such as well. FML. Took me a day or two to get over that, but since I'm the most forgiving person she'll ever meet.. I of course came right back to her. Some other stuff happened that I cannot speak of, for it isn't stuff anyone needs to know (this is more bad stuff, if it was something good, I'm sure I'd be gloating one way or another).
While all this crap is happening, my bro, Adam, is falling for Brianna. Yes the same Brianna that took my life and stomped on it. It is now at the point where the two are engaging in activities that nobody will speak of. Considering the prior relationship between her and I, Adam is totally breaking bro code, and losing trust daily. God knows what they're doing, but I don't approve of it.
Now here we have this girl I like. Who seems to also be falling for another boy (whom she dated 3 years ago). Think of me. I'm good at two things. Cars, and Computers. He's better at both of them than me... and he's better looking (what Brianna see's in Adam I have no clue, but since she has been the number one source of drama and lying in my life this year, FUCK her shit, I don't trust her anyways). So it's understandable why she might like him (Carl... ohhh FUCK Carl)... except that he lives in England and is only here for the summer.
See, I'd do anything for this girl. Anything to make her happy. I would go to the ends of the earth for her... but I feel like she doesn't see that. It's probably because so many guys have hurt her in the past, but I feel like I shouldn't have to suffer because of her mistakes in choosing boyfriends. I was told recently, that 98% of guys are douche bags, and they ruin it for the other 2% of us who aren't. I feel like I'm that 2%. I don't want sex, since I've never had, it's not a drive I have. If I get it, maybe that will change, but probably not. I aim to please. I'm a great listener, and give great advice, and yet, I'm always the one that gets trampled on when someones on the way to fame. FML.
I guess long story short.. Adam is losing my trust because he's getting on a girl who rejected me and ruined my life by making many people hate me. Brianna is.. a bitch. She needs to learn how to keep her mouth shut (OH BTW, Brianna and this girl are like BFF's now, so I can't say anything to either one of them without the other one knowing within 3 minutes, EFF THAT SHIT). And this girl is really giving me a harsh time, making me feel loved one day, and the next telling me she had to force herself to like me. I'm not sure if she's still flirting with me or not. I don't know what to do next. I love her, more than anything, and I had a nice talk with her tonight, proving to her that I'll always be there for her, and I made some damn good points! I don't know.. that's all my life is.. just.. fucked up drama all the time. I'm quite close to changing my phone number and moving away.. so nobody finds me. But at the same time, I'm so attached to this damn island that I can't manage to get away. *sigh* If only I could show Adam how un-bro-like he's being. If only I could show Brianna how much shit she causes. If only I could show this other girl how much I love and care about her, and have her return the feelings....
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